loving these girls..
i love them.. they are my sisters.. they have my heart and loyalty.. because they deserve it..
shoudnt be that bad..
hello mellons.. hehe changed the blog's look again.. well im just going for the simple look.. rajin to write today but i have no idea what to write..
i guess ill just write on what im planning to do on december.. december is like a loooong holiday for me.. i might go labuan twice.. in early november and new year.. and guess what ill be going on the boat alone and meet up the people there saja pasal durang awal sudah kesana haha.. like okay lah im confident.. but at the same time takut ku mcm nada org ambil aku arah labuhan atu eh.. tapi inda apaalah.. i wish my bf can join me.. tapi entah leerr..
ill take lots of picts.. to update you monstertrucks (which will end up in facebook).. and i cant wait to relax my head off in december.. work KILLING me inside..
anyways ..
i miss my boyfriend.. he's been busy with college and i understand.. and hell.. why do i get ngtive lately.. im scared that yknow whatever he did dulu comes back.. crap maybe im phobic on this already.. im grateful that my boyfriend is showing that he loves me.. he's saying that everyday.. he wasnt like that dulu..
prolly im feeling down ani pasal i got hurt badly atu kali.. sometimes i wish i dont feel that pain..that ngtivity.. that fucked up feeling..
i honestly cry sometimes when im alone.. haha okay im writning without thinking the consequences now.. prolly cause i dont have anybody to talk with.. everybody is busy..
i use to be a strong person.. and my greatest fear now is my bf hurting me.. i got hurt by somebody dulu.. and decided that that person did not deserve me and i found my boyfriend and we fell for each other and open up whatever closed doors we had..and i trusted him and he hurt me when i was healing.. but he made it up to me sudah.. and yet im living in an on and off fear.. im scared that he would change..
i dont need proof of him loving me.. he has done that.. i just want yknow that secure feeling bah.. i cant explain it with words but yeah.. if i could take out my heart and show you waht i meant prolly you'd know what i mean.. god emo jua tu ah :') i dont want him to change into something i dont want..
sakit you know to feel scared .. i love my boyfriend soo much.. i hope he knows.. god baby i need that magic from you.. you're a good man.. and i dont want you to change..
i guess ill just write on what im planning to do on december.. december is like a loooong holiday for me.. i might go labuan twice.. in early november and new year.. and guess what ill be going on the boat alone and meet up the people there saja pasal durang awal sudah kesana haha.. like okay lah im confident.. but at the same time takut ku mcm nada org ambil aku arah labuhan atu eh.. tapi inda apaalah.. i wish my bf can join me.. tapi entah leerr..
ill take lots of picts.. to update you monstertrucks (which will end up in facebook).. and i cant wait to relax my head off in december.. work KILLING me inside..
anyways ..
i miss my boyfriend.. he's been busy with college and i understand.. and hell.. why do i get ngtive lately.. im scared that yknow whatever he did dulu comes back.. crap maybe im phobic on this already.. im grateful that my boyfriend is showing that he loves me.. he's saying that everyday.. he wasnt like that dulu..
prolly im feeling down ani pasal i got hurt badly atu kali.. sometimes i wish i dont feel that pain..that ngtivity.. that fucked up feeling..
i honestly cry sometimes when im alone.. haha okay im writning without thinking the consequences now.. prolly cause i dont have anybody to talk with.. everybody is busy..
i use to be a strong person.. and my greatest fear now is my bf hurting me.. i got hurt by somebody dulu.. and decided that that person did not deserve me and i found my boyfriend and we fell for each other and open up whatever closed doors we had..and i trusted him and he hurt me when i was healing.. but he made it up to me sudah.. and yet im living in an on and off fear.. im scared that he would change..
i dont need proof of him loving me.. he has done that.. i just want yknow that secure feeling bah.. i cant explain it with words but yeah.. if i could take out my heart and show you waht i meant prolly you'd know what i mean.. god emo jua tu ah :') i dont want him to change into something i dont want..
sakit you know to feel scared .. i love my boyfriend soo much.. i hope he knows.. god baby i need that magic from you.. you're a good man.. and i dont want you to change..
Ms Krazie-Back Into My Life Featuring D.Salas
love this song.. sekali sekala mau jua samseng latino *wink* love the lyrics also.. and nope i dont dedicate it to anyone at all~
i HAD to do this for NAD'S sake HAHA!
sooo nad tagged me right.. so uh ani sajalah me liat kan ahhh naaad ahh HAHAHAHA. this is how jurit my bed is.. well ani baik lagi ni.. on my uh awesome days.. i have like a lil hill of clothes and jeans.. my mum is like constantly pissed off everytime she's in my room.. and when i do clean up my room, its like.. 2 weeks warranty saja..
soo my fav things in my room is my boyfriend's cap (which i stole from him since last year) and his tie.. i got that this year.. he wor it on me pasal ia marah2 sekali ia pujuk lah. and on my bed (yang bejurit ah) is my baby's jacket.. i took that from him.. that jacket.. crazy memories!! haha. i always say id give that jacket back to him since last year but inda jua.. he end up buying a new jacket anyways..
these are my fav things in my room cause it makes me feel close to my sayang.. as you all know iam in a long distance relationship..
the flowers from him ada pulang its on my tv.. haha i dont have a flat screen tv.. we have that on the living room saja.. atu my dad's pride and joy tu haha..
okay nad i think we have the same type of side table.. mine is glass .. but the difference is..
the side view of my bed HAHA..
SO yeah hope y'all like my uh post on how jurit my room is ;)
soo my fav things in my room is my boyfriend's cap (which i stole from him since last year) and his tie.. i got that this year.. he wor it on me pasal ia marah2 sekali ia pujuk lah. and on my bed (yang bejurit ah) is my baby's jacket.. i took that from him.. that jacket.. crazy memories!! haha. i always say id give that jacket back to him since last year but inda jua.. he end up buying a new jacket anyways..
these are my fav things in my room cause it makes me feel close to my sayang.. as you all know iam in a long distance relationship..
the flowers from him ada pulang its on my tv.. haha i dont have a flat screen tv.. we have that on the living room saja.. atu my dad's pride and joy tu haha..
okay nad i think we have the same type of side table.. mine is glass .. but the difference is..
BERJURIT!!
the side view of my bed HAHA..
SO yeah hope y'all like my uh post on how jurit my room is ;)
banana buns
friday.. my friday went well.. i made an app to get myself a massage at 2 tadi.. nyaman tho sakit.. ive been wanting to do that like months sudah.. works been hectic and that massage is the second best gift for myself.. berabis..
god.. ive been moody lately kali.. esp with my bf.. i mean i get nyamal for no hard reason.. but i did explain him pulang.. hope he understands.. and im really sorry for my syg.. i hope he understands its not him.. its the hormones that make me moody..
anyways our last date was our 16th monthsary.. it was awesome haha had a lil incident.. jollibee is now a dirty place :P dont get me wrong.. it was cause well of my meal a frankfurter.. awkward bah.. haha malas me cereta.. as in here.. my bf is such a bully!!
well after that we went to a movie.. we watched 'the takers' it was 10/10 movie.. eye candy much!! plus the story was siuk jua.. an action movie that did not manage to make me ZZZZZZZZZzzz..
and my bf gave me a mixed cd.. tho it is like stuck here and there haha.. but its cute tho.. so anyways as i was saying , the movie is *thumbs up* and the siuk part is i get to cuddle with my bf.. it was thotful of him to offer me a blanky and jacket.. so that alai nya inda saajjuuuk hehe my sweet sayang..
after the movie we went crystal jade kali.. i think thats the name of the place.. and as usual on our way going to any place we head to.. my bf always put on music that always make me jaling and smile HAHA. and i just love the way he drives and at the same time holding my hand.. he the sexy one!!
so we arrived at crystal jade and yeah hang with the boys.. and they keep playing this peter thing wic i think peter is kong!! haha. so kong is now peter kong. yup peter kong.. i went to kb jua that day.. and as usual cried :') sigh i wish we werent this far yknow..
so that was last sunday.. the next day/night i had dinner with ferra.. we planned that like a few days before lah.. and yknow what hpn? on that night.. as i was getting ready and all.. haha assylla and zulf came to my house. that was a shocker cause i din expect to see them u know.. both of them.. so i told them that im suppose to have dinner with ferra.. who at that hasnt arrived yet. so i told them they should join us at moinam.. so they went there first.. and a few minutes after that ferra came. and we went to moinam.. and meet the other two and we had a great night.. kami makan macam samseng haha overload!! if you hpn to want to eat there.. try eating the madagascar chicken thingy.. delicious dude.. berabis. and its hot!!
so my week was great lah pokoknya.. tho hectic at work..
god.. ive been moody lately kali.. esp with my bf.. i mean i get nyamal for no hard reason.. but i did explain him pulang.. hope he understands.. and im really sorry for my syg.. i hope he understands its not him.. its the hormones that make me moody..
anyways our last date was our 16th monthsary.. it was awesome haha had a lil incident.. jollibee is now a dirty place :P dont get me wrong.. it was cause well of my meal a frankfurter.. awkward bah.. haha malas me cereta.. as in here.. my bf is such a bully!!
well after that we went to a movie.. we watched 'the takers' it was 10/10 movie.. eye candy much!! plus the story was siuk jua.. an action movie that did not manage to make me ZZZZZZZZZzzz..
and my bf gave me a mixed cd.. tho it is like stuck here and there haha.. but its cute tho.. so anyways as i was saying , the movie is *thumbs up* and the siuk part is i get to cuddle with my bf.. it was thotful of him to offer me a blanky and jacket.. so that alai nya inda saajjuuuk hehe my sweet sayang..
after the movie we went crystal jade kali.. i think thats the name of the place.. and as usual on our way going to any place we head to.. my bf always put on music that always make me jaling and smile HAHA. and i just love the way he drives and at the same time holding my hand.. he the sexy one!!
so we arrived at crystal jade and yeah hang with the boys.. and they keep playing this peter thing wic i think peter is kong!! haha. so kong is now peter kong. yup peter kong.. i went to kb jua that day.. and as usual cried :') sigh i wish we werent this far yknow..
so that was last sunday.. the next day/night i had dinner with ferra.. we planned that like a few days before lah.. and yknow what hpn? on that night.. as i was getting ready and all.. haha assylla and zulf came to my house. that was a shocker cause i din expect to see them u know.. both of them.. so i told them that im suppose to have dinner with ferra.. who at that hasnt arrived yet. so i told them they should join us at moinam.. so they went there first.. and a few minutes after that ferra came. and we went to moinam.. and meet the other two and we had a great night.. kami makan macam samseng haha overload!! if you hpn to want to eat there.. try eating the madagascar chicken thingy.. delicious dude.. berabis. and its hot!!
so my week was great lah pokoknya.. tho hectic at work..
and ill post a picture of my room soon.. hahaha nad tagged me.. so yeaah soon ah.. u'll see how a gangstar sleeps.. bejurit much!!
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