you.. you did it again.

I remember ths ten2five song. Hee.im a bit fuckd up nw. emotionally handicaped,plus im trying these new pills, mybody responses is shitty.bt im being optimistic,cz my ass is how to say,kalau diampas nyaman yo cz of the pils.heh mau lg bibun ani bah. main point i wantd to say is Its weird smtimes guys hurt you that easily. Despite everytng you did for them. I wonder if they even hv slight memory of the sacrifices us gfs did for em everytime they hurt us. =.) i tend to say sorry even if its him who nds to apologies.ths is due to me bein really guilty at our rltnshp.i just wantd the arguement to end and just be the loving,hot for ech othr couple we are. iam stupid or i am madly in love with him. i let him shout at me. ido fight bck,bt i hold bck my anger and end up bein quiet and just fucking cry if he calls me stupid or yells at me,and evn call me a kegatalan.harsh? thats just my bf. he says thngs bfore thnking the consequences of it. and yet,i stl love him and stand behind him. with the patience i myself dnt knw i had all ths time. hee or is it everytime i want to leave.. i always remind myself the goodness in him. i always remind myself of the reasons why i wantd to be with him at the first place. what am i trying to say here? idk. im just sad,hurt and fuckd up. i really want loyalty frm him..dspite the nvr ending chicks paranoia.. stl i am loyal to him and nt put a hardcore revenge at ia. am i stupid?love drunk? hee. maybe ths is what love is.. love is stupidity at its most extreme point.. where you take pain and stl smile as if nothing is fucking you in the head. i just wantd appriciation frm you. love me like you nvr love any1 else. i kw you love me.bt you nd to hurt me less.. thats all.

kapok kapok kenapa kau btapok??

as much as i want to upload more here i guess i'll just upload one picture :) the rest are in my facebook.. so hey base on this pict you know i had a good night of raya :D truth is lagging bah now. BANCI KU. urgggggggggh.