mutherprucker is such a prick

my new beanie. and my psycho eyes. they always make my boyfriend ketawa. haha.

happy new year

hows was your new year eves guys?? hehe. mine was great :) alhamdulilah.. well me and the fam went jp and the boyfriend join us.. then me and him went out frm jp cause nada jua kan dibuat..so the parents and us seperated..in a good way lah hehe.. so yeah..sayang and me went jalan2..then went to empire to see the fireworks.. lawa and adding up the romantic aura haha it was our anniversary.. :) too bad nada picts.. after that we went to tk bukit to meet up with kong..so we makan2 and talk..and my baby sent me home..

sooooooooooooo... the next day wic was on 1st of jan 2010 (awesome isnt it? i mean inda terasaa ykw) since we din get to jalan-jalan.. we went jalan-jalan huhuuuuuuuuuuu!! dinner at mcD's.. refill inda menjadi.. bought him ciggys..took picts at the photo booth..and he suprised me with charles&keith heels :D sexeeeeeeeeeeeeh. baybeeh... niceeeeeeeeeeee. i din knw bah plan nya antu.. he is always the joker and pengatil..so ia ckp bawa 'cuci mata' and tarus2 ia cakap ia balikan huhu.. he made my day..seriously..

the heels sayang bought me... not a cheapskate boyfriendddd i tell youuuuuuuuuuuuuu haha.

i love you sayang..happy anniversary..

goodbye 2009. and hello 2010.

i couldnt think of what to update with this blog so i guess just a few picts from this year. btw merry xmas guys and happy advance new year kasih sayang ku semua...

cuddles.

had a date with bubu last thursday. we went from tk bukit to the place,cz we din kw where to go since it was really late.just watchng tv and spending time together. aftr that i went breakfst at anggrek, so called balikpapan. i din sleep the whole nyt,i ws tired frm everything.then i went to jangsak.to rest at aunt noy. brutah me pengsan.at her sofa. i had some picts bt its stl in the cam,and i hvnt used my laptop ths fw days. i miss the boyfriend nw. im hapy that we are okay nw.

i mean it when i said i...you

Thres smthng wrong wt the blog punya date.like lambat sehari. hmph.. imiss him now. i just wish im with him.it always feels safe everytime he puts hs arm around me or when he holds my hand. im outof creds. idk but ever since that,i fl that he really misses me with hs msgs and mcs. somehow ths abis crdt thngy is like ukw coincidence thngy like gvng us space after that damn incident hpn. im fling better in all sorts of ways. im hating less,tho it hurts everytime i rmber it. im less paranoid hehe sort off.and im accepting his love,i mean i do terima bfore ths,bt i was too in pain that i cudnt believe anythng he said,i felt played.i went paranoid whether he meant it evrytime he said he loves and misses me. bt my love for him nvr change tho. im so into him despite what he did. dspite mistakes done. mainpoint,my trust is getting okay nw. alhamdulilah.mudahan nda dugaan barat lg. im tired. i just want to be loved by my boyfriend,and alhamdulilah he does..

you love me,and so do i.. i missed you,and so do you. we are fixing the damages together.. hmm i wana eat banana pancakes witchu babylove.

hmm

i rather not think bout anythng involvng betrayal etc. im just gna try heal,and move on, if he change alhamdulilah.if not then thats god dcision on anythng. im more to lookng for the ryt job and get money and vacays now.