this could be the last..

yup thats right.. this could be the last of my blog posting.. not much to write.. plus those random visitors.. it just makes me feel ermm like a fish in an aquarium.. hmm.. till we 'blog' again :)







hope you guys love this track.. cos i love it :D

its been a long time baby

iam like soooooooooooo sorry guys.. its been like ages of me not updating my blog.. i changed its look tho.. how you likey?? likey?? i likey.. cause its red and lots of hearts and all.. anyways im still having my holiday. its all good.. lots of rest.. well.. lots of rest sampai bosan haha.. i miss working tho.. but when works start im gonna biatch on how tired i am and that i want a long holiday and all.. hehe bare with me yea?? thats just me.. my boyfriend is like soo tough with handling my attitude Hahah.. kesian.. tapi im a good girl kali uh.. anyways i dunno what to write banar nya.. but after reading nad's and ema's blog i kinda want to update my blog tarus..

so okay.. altho im in my holidays.. i have tons of homework.. i need to prepare my lesson plan next year.. my teaching aids.. reading material for my kids.. but urmm ive been really 'lazy' lately.. i end up juat ampai2 my work and my laptop.. aku main game sajaa.. farm rush is like SIUK. haha. im addicted to it.

i should start on my work soon.. before 2o something starts cause prolly ill have an event with the gang soon.. and then 29-30 ill be in labuan.. but ill be in brunei on new year hopfully..

and nad's trip to kl reminds me that i havent kumpul duit kucek yet for my trip in march.. i havent start to kumpul any pocket money.. tapi awal sudah ku plan apa kan ku buat and bali HAHA.. anyways relax saja dulu.. (my dad is like pissed at this attitude of mine.. pasal aku boros lately.. 'cemanakan ngumpul tu???!!' that is how he says it.. hmmm)

and as for the BB cream damam in brunei.. yup iam like in love with the cream juaaaa... and well.. when i wore it i din tell my baby bout it but yeah.. FOR THE FIRST TIME between me and my boyfriend.. he asked me 'you wearin make up?" haha kembang lah i.. i love the fact that it gives you confidence.. i mean when i wear it im like 'lets go!!' and its macam shiny in a good and lawa way.. it gives you that sparkly look..


since mine is like kan habis.. i asked my hun to buy it for me and i told him the price.. his response to the price 'sanaaaafaaabits!!'
hahaha.. men.. they just dont get it.. the price of belawa

but well i know my bf.. he's gonna get me jua tu sooner or later..

but now im like asking him jua to buy me a flat iron.. for my hair.. i have like an erika david kinda hair now.. or as my bf calls it 'fringe tabal di dapan ahhh'.. and he loves it..

you see my bf lately ask me.. untuk siapa jua kan belawa.. well baby its all for you..

hey i hope yall keep up with me yeah.. when i write uh.. i goo cwaaazy... my ideas and storie came poring like water~

anyways last week my bf came to my place.. ngajut.. he suprise me hehe.. i was at a tahlil and my bf called saying he's otw to kb.. so he came to my place.. and bawa a McD meal.. before he told me he was going to kb i did texted him that me tesliur mcD since tuesday and well ia kesian kali arah me iataah ia ngajut kebelait atu kali.. so as i was saying, he came to kb to my place.. hang out sekajap at home then we went for dinner at marilyn's.. and omfg knyang berabis me..

my bf is like spoiling me with anthing he could spoil me.. despite that its dangerous cause this could make me goooo bulat.. iam just grateful :) thanks sayang.. jangan lupa plaaat ayyyoorn ku :) sayaang saaayaaanng saaayangg kali uh..

alright thats it.. im tired baby.. i gotta go text with my baby.. karang ada yang marah
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just waiting for me to break

David Guetta - One Love (feat. Feat Estelle) (Full & HQ)

loving these girls..







i love them.. they are my sisters.. they have my heart and loyalty.. because they deserve it..

shoudnt be that bad..

hello mellons.. hehe changed the blog's look again.. well im just going for the simple look.. rajin to write today but i have no idea what to write..

i guess ill just write on what im planning to do on december.. december is like a loooong holiday for me.. i might go labuan twice.. in early november and new year.. and guess what ill be going on the boat alone and meet up the people there saja pasal durang awal sudah kesana haha.. like okay lah im confident.. but at the same time takut ku mcm nada org ambil aku arah labuhan atu eh.. tapi inda apaalah.. i wish my bf can join me.. tapi entah leerr..

ill take lots of picts.. to update you monstertrucks (which will end up in facebook).. and i cant wait to relax my head off in december.. work KILLING me inside..

anyways ..

i miss my boyfriend.. he's been busy with college and i understand.. and hell.. why do i get ngtive lately.. im scared that yknow whatever he did dulu comes back.. crap maybe im phobic on this already.. im grateful that my boyfriend is showing that he loves me.. he's saying that everyday.. he wasnt like that dulu..
prolly im feeling down ani pasal i got hurt badly atu kali.. sometimes i wish i dont feel that pain..that ngtivity.. that fucked up feeling..

i honestly cry sometimes when im alone.. haha okay im writning without thinking the consequences now.. prolly cause i dont have anybody to talk with.. everybody is busy..

i use to be a strong person.. and my greatest fear now is my bf hurting me.. i got hurt by somebody dulu.. and decided that that person did not deserve me and i found my boyfriend and we fell for each other and open up whatever closed doors we had..and i trusted him and he hurt me when i was healing.. but he made it up to me sudah.. and yet im living in an on and off fear.. im scared that he would change..

i dont need proof of him loving me.. he has done that.. i just want yknow that secure feeling bah.. i cant explain it with words but yeah.. if i could take out my heart and show you waht i meant prolly you'd know what i mean.. god emo jua tu ah :') i dont want him to change into something i dont want..

sakit you know to feel scared .. i love my boyfriend soo much.. i hope he knows.. god baby i need that magic from you.. you're a good man.. and i dont want you to change..

my ohh my...

dont get excited yet.. just read the flash thingy until it finishes :P

Flirty Myspace Comments

twice

i kinda miss this girl.. will be seeing her next january.. :'(



i miss our nenen times..

Ms Krazie-Back Into My Life Featuring D.Salas

love this song.. sekali sekala mau jua samseng latino *wink* love the lyrics also.. and nope i dont dedicate it to anyone at all~

i HAD to do this for NAD'S sake HAHA!




















sooo nad tagged me right.. so uh ani sajalah me liat kan ahhh naaad ahh HAHAHAHA. this is how jurit my bed is.. well ani baik lagi ni.. on my uh awesome days.. i have like a lil hill of clothes and jeans.. my mum is like constantly pissed off everytime she's in my room.. and when i do clean up my room, its like.. 2 weeks warranty saja..

soo my fav things in my room is my boyfriend's cap (which i stole from him since last year) and his tie.. i got that this year.. he wor it on me pasal ia marah2 sekali ia pujuk lah. and on my bed (yang bejurit ah) is my baby's jacket.. i took that from him.. that jacket.. crazy memories!! haha. i always say id give that jacket back to him since last year but inda jua.. he end up buying a new jacket anyways..
these are my fav things in my room cause it makes me feel close to my sayang.. as you all know iam in a long distance relationship..

the flowers from him ada pulang its on my tv.. haha i dont have a flat screen tv.. we have that on the living room saja.. atu my dad's pride and joy tu haha..

okay nad i think we have the same type of side table.. mine is glass .. but the difference is..

BERJURIT!!




the side view of my bed HAHA..



SO yeah hope y'all like my uh post on how jurit my room is ;)

banana buns

friday.. my friday went well.. i made an app to get myself a massage at 2 tadi.. nyaman tho sakit.. ive been wanting to do that like months sudah.. works been hectic and that massage is the second best gift for myself.. berabis..

god.. ive been moody lately kali.. esp with my bf.. i mean i get nyamal for no hard reason.. but i did explain him pulang.. hope he understands.. and im really sorry for my syg.. i hope he understands its not him.. its the hormones that make me moody..

anyways our last date was our 16th monthsary.. it was awesome haha had a lil incident.. jollibee is now a dirty place :P dont get me wrong.. it was cause well of my meal a frankfurter.. awkward bah.. haha malas me cereta.. as in here.. my bf is such a bully!!
well after that we went to a movie.. we watched 'the takers' it was 10/10 movie.. eye candy much!! plus the story was siuk jua.. an action movie that did not manage to make me ZZZZZZZZZzzz..
and my bf gave me a mixed cd.. tho it is like stuck here and there haha.. but its cute tho.. so anyways as i was saying , the movie is *thumbs up* and the siuk part is i get to cuddle with my bf.. it was thotful of him to offer me a blanky and jacket.. so that alai nya inda saajjuuuk hehe my sweet sayang..

after the movie we went crystal jade kali.. i think thats the name of the place.. and as usual on our way going to any place we head to.. my bf always put on music that always make me jaling and smile HAHA. and i just love the way he drives and at the same time holding my hand.. he the sexy one!!

so we arrived at crystal jade and yeah hang with the boys.. and they keep playing this peter thing wic i think peter is kong!! haha. so kong is now peter kong. yup peter kong.. i went to kb jua that day.. and as usual cried :') sigh i wish we werent this far yknow..

so that was last sunday.. the next day/night i had dinner with ferra.. we planned that like a few days before lah.. and yknow what hpn? on that night.. as i was getting ready and all.. haha assylla and zulf came to my house. that was a shocker cause i din expect to see them u know.. both of them.. so i told them that im suppose to have dinner with ferra.. who at that hasnt arrived yet. so i told them they should join us at moinam.. so they went there first.. and a few minutes after that ferra came. and we went to moinam.. and meet the other two and we had a great night.. kami makan macam samseng haha overload!! if you hpn to want to eat there.. try eating the madagascar chicken thingy.. delicious dude.. berabis. and its hot!!

so my week was great lah pokoknya.. tho hectic at work..

and ill post a picture of my room soon.. hahaha nad tagged me.. so yeaah soon ah.. u'll see how a gangstar sleeps.. bejurit much!!

Lil Kim feat. Mr. Cheeks - The Jump Off







my fav. song lately..

updated

omfg like heeey i havent update this baby for like laama sudah.. did you guys miss me??? *wink* lifes been busy and stuff.. i got like banyak panings and stuff.. but babes im like excited for december :D cutiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!! as in hols.. and whats your plan for new year??
my dad wanted to make like a bbq/party but yeaah.. mcm malas jua.. so prolly and hopfully.. we will just rent a hotel room in Bru.. and relax.. i aaam sooo tired.. soo yeaah i want that please :)

and im feeling the party vibes already.. i remember the times when we had parties and stuff.. i miss my dancing feet haha..

hmm.. i know its a quick update but yeah.. my work drained my blogging ways .. shooo saaaad.

and i changed my blog's look.. sanak me liat the old look uh..

eid mubarak love


selamat hari raya people.. i know ive been well.. not updating you guys.. been busy.. holidays?? no rehat hehe.. and i got events at school till the 16th.. then come exams.. gosh im tired but im loving life..

i know sometimes i complain.. esp bout my syg... my bf loves me and he is a good man.. my past relationships(no offence) cant top this.. alhamdulillah :) im glad we found each other syang..

i love the way you say you love me everyday.. i love that you say sorry when your wrong.. i love the way you LISTEN to me.. even if i cry and sound fugly, you would stll listen.. i love the way you appreciate me.. i love the way you spoil me.. i love the way you are.. i cant mention everything cause well.. banyaak :)

a picture of us just now.. us at an uncle's openhz.. casual berabis kami haha. i wore a sexy dress! and my bf?? handsome boy as always.. mcm org at an xmas partypulang :P

soo have nice raya everyone.. be safe and well talk to you soon.. i ammm tiredddd and sleepy!!

hello mello

have you ever felt damn ignored?? okaay okkaaay me emo now.. haha.. malas kan cakap pasal apaa pffftt... the same alasan jua kana bari.. so yeahh..


my sexy love.. kau annoying.. HAHA.



foxy night

haha foxy.. due to me meeting and updating with the ladies.. Syll,Syd && Qay.. but before that id tell you guys how the daaay went.. sooo.. the boys came to kb.. boon my baby,kong,zulf,khai,yazid, judin and the smiley face guy.. i still dont remember his name cause i dont hear much from him. FYI thanks to syd.. judin is like satu intake with us in PJN.. i remember that face of his but.. yknow inda ku brani cakap apa2.. anyways.. we went sungkai at RMS.. okay pulang sana.. ada cowboy hats :D mun ampir ku pakai tu haha you know if i can reach it and have the balls to do soo.. i shouldve took pictures.. it was good day.. had fun and relaxin.. i mean tiring cause it was overwhelming.. but over all the stress througout the week... washed awaaay!! and uh i blogged that during ramadhan i din want to meet the bf and such.. cause i wana focus on puasa and such.. but yeaaaaah haha we met juaa.. plus i had my pewiood soo uhh.. thats a bida alasan right??

walau apa pun.. my rindu to my boyfriend.. punn ter-ubat.. :P i miss him..

when we were at riviera.. where i met my 3 foxy ladies.. who joined us.. which in a fun way.. syd and syll made my inner fun-loving-perv come out.. hahahaha.. since the other boys were i duno.. inda cakap with us.. prolly cause they din know what to say kali.. we uhh targeted my bf.. kesian alai baby ku.. haha.. but yeah harmless.. i love my sayang such a sport..

so the gals went home a bit early than us.. and afterthat i layaaaan my bf heheh.. so the boys.. excluding my bf.. bawaa burger.. non for us lah haha.. kami liaaaat saja.. so we ada light bulb.. and yeah we weeent to MARILYNS.. we escape from the boys and makan there sekajap.. we ate american (big ass) burger and lasagne.. ouh heeelll it was good as always.. the taste just overwhelmsss you.. my bf loves the two meals.. when he comes to kb.. whenever we have the chance.. we dine there.. and our menu.. american (big ass) burger and lasagne and light coke.. as always i clean up the veggies for my bf.. 'allergic' konon HAHA.. but i love it.. yknow veggiess.. after makan.. we went back to riviera

crap... lapar ku becakap pasal food ani..
okay monstertrucks.. GTG.. or TTYL.. hahahaha there an inner joke there.. :)

muhamad fadzli@boon.. i love youu sooo much.. kau memang hot semaaalam :PPPP

112-CRAZY OVER YOU

magic trees

late night conversations.. i appreciate that tho my bf sometimes gets cranky (for lil mistakes i said.. or cause me bangang with feedbacks..) without any warning and shouts and stuff.. and yeah me crying and stuff.. grumpy pants.. i love that pemarah bf of mine.. but i know he loves me even tho somtimes he can be a bit harsh with me :') and i love him too.. the other day..friday kali.. he told me bout cosmo and he said bout scholarship.. he went for the exam.. and he din explain me much.. haha soo i just kept everything inside and mcm kan nangis saja the whole day cause i thot he was going to be like a country away from me if he gets the scholarship.. i dont mind pulang.. cause i also plan to continue my studies and get a scholarship.. but yeah.. i just cant handle yet.. being that far from him.. and listening to 112 'crazy for you' made me cry like a bitch.. damn.. i love himm sooo much.. but theen he tooold me that the scholarship was base in Brunei.. awww... and he said 'dont worry' hehe he knew i was scared he was gna be sooooooooooooo far from me.. good luck syg.. i hope you dapat it and i'll always support you.. thru thick and thin.. yknow i would.. and jangan kuat marah2 samaaa me waaah.. :8)

what do we have heeeree

happy Ramadhan :) gosh first dips of puasa went well... and i love ramadhan.. its a time i detox my self from all my sins.. i dont meet my boyfriend during this time.. cause i told him 'its a time to focus on puasa' hehe :) i hope he understands.. also to me puasa is the time for me to get together with my parents and sibs.. we dont eat much as in in together as a family.. not in a bad way pulang.. but i do eat lunch with my lil bro.. its a must.. just the adults saja hehe..busy here and theeere.. so eating together at the same table!! the saaaame time!!! mattterrrrs to me at this month... whatamisayiiiin!! anyhootsss.. ramadhan went well alhamdulillah heheh