Baby Its You and Me

this could be the last..

2011-02-07T05:19:00.000-08:00

yup thats right.. this could be the last of my blog posting.. not much to write.. plus those random visitors.. it just makes me feel ermm like a fish in an aquarium.. hmm.. till we 'blog' again :)

hope you guys love this track.. cos i love it :D

its been a long time baby

2010-12-14T06:35:00.000-08:00

iam like soooooooooooo sorry guys.. its been like ages of me not updating my blog.. i changed its look tho.. how you likey?? likey?? i likey.. cause its red and lots of hearts and all.. anyways im still having my holiday. its all good.. lots of rest.. well.. lots of rest sampai bosan haha.. i miss working tho.. but when works start im gonna biatch on how tired i am and that i want a long holiday and all.. hehe bare with me yea?? thats just me.. my boyfriend is like soo tough with handling my attitude Hahah.. kesian.. tapi im a good girl kali uh.. anyways i dunno what to write banar nya.. but after reading nad's and ema's blog i kinda want to update my blog tarus..

so okay.. altho im in my holidays.. i have tons of homework.. i need to prepare my lesson plan next year.. my teaching aids.. reading material for my kids.. but urmm ive been really 'lazy' lately.. i end up juat ampai2 my work and my laptop.. aku main game sajaa.. farm rush is like SIUK. haha. im addicted to it.

i should start on my work soon.. before 2o something starts cause prolly ill have an event with the gang soon.. and then 29-30 ill be in labuan.. but ill be in brunei on new year hopfully..

and nad's trip to kl reminds me that i havent kumpul duit kucek yet for my trip in march.. i havent start to kumpul any pocket money.. tapi awal sudah ku plan apa kan ku buat and bali HAHA.. anyways relax saja dulu.. (my dad is like pissed at this attitude of mine.. pasal aku boros lately.. 'cemanakan ngumpul tu???!!' that is how he says it.. hmmm)

and as for the BB cream damam in brunei.. yup iam like in love with the cream juaaaa... and well.. when i wore it i din tell my baby bout it but yeah.. FOR THE FIRST TIME between me and my boyfriend.. he asked me 'you wearin make up?" haha kembang lah i.. i love the fact that it gives you confidence.. i mean when i wear it im like 'lets go!!' and its macam shiny in a good and lawa way.. it gives you that sparkly look..

since mine is like kan habis.. i asked my hun to buy it for me and i told him the price.. his response to the price 'sanaaaafaaabits!!'
hahaha.. men.. they just dont get it.. the price of belawa
but well i know my bf.. he's gonna get me jua tu sooner or later..

but now im like asking him jua to buy me a flat iron.. for my hair.. i have like an erika david kinda hair now.. or as my bf calls it 'fringe tabal di dapan ahhh'.. and he loves it..

you see my bf lately ask me.. untuk siapa jua kan belawa.. well baby its all for you..

hey i hope yall keep up with me yeah.. when i write uh.. i goo cwaaazy... my ideas and storie came poring like water~

anyways last week my bf came to my place.. ngajut.. he suprise me hehe.. i was at a tahlil and my bf called saying he's otw to kb.. so he came to my place.. and bawa a McD meal.. before he told me he was going to kb i did texted him that me tesliur mcD since tuesday and well ia kesian kali arah me iataah ia ngajut kebelait atu kali.. so as i was saying, he came to kb to my place.. hang out sekajap at home then we went for dinner at marilyn's.. and omfg knyang berabis me..

my bf is like spoiling me with anthing he could spoil me.. despite that its dangerous cause this could make me goooo bulat.. iam just grateful :) thanks sayang.. jangan lupa plaaat ayyyoorn ku :) sayaang saaayaaanng saaayangg kali uh..

alright thats it.. im tired baby.. i gotta go text with my baby.. karang ada yang marah..

Rihanna - Love The Way You Lie (Part 2) ft. Eminem LYRICS

2010-11-23T00:14:00.000-08:00

just waiting for me to break

2010-11-22T23:59:00.000-08:00

David Guetta - One Love (feat. Feat Estelle) (Full & HQ)

2010-11-16T04:51:00.000-08:00

loving these girls..

2010-11-16T03:36:00.000-08:00

i love them.. they are my sisters.. they have my heart and loyalty.. because they deserve it..

shoudnt be that bad..

2010-11-16T02:54:00.000-08:00

hello mellons.. hehe changed the blog's look again.. well im just going for the simple look.. rajin to write today but i have no idea what to write..

i guess ill just write on what im planning to do on december.. december is like a loooong holiday for me.. i might go labuan twice.. in early november and new year.. and guess what ill be going on the boat alone and meet up the people there saja pasal durang awal sudah kesana haha.. like okay lah im confident.. but at the same time takut ku mcm nada org ambil aku arah labuhan atu eh.. tapi inda apaalah.. i wish my bf can join me.. tapi entah leerr..

ill take lots of picts.. to update you monstertrucks (which will end up in facebook).. and i cant wait to relax my head off in december.. work KILLING me inside..

anyways ..

i miss my boyfriend.. he's been busy with college and i understand.. and hell.. why do i get ngtive lately.. im scared that yknow whatever he did dulu comes back.. crap maybe im phobic on this already.. im grateful that my boyfriend is showing that he loves me.. he's saying that everyday.. he wasnt like that dulu..
prolly im feeling down ani pasal i got hurt badly atu kali.. sometimes i wish i dont feel that pain..that ngtivity.. that fucked up feeling..

i honestly cry sometimes when im alone.. haha okay im writning without thinking the consequences now.. prolly cause i dont have anybody to talk with.. everybody is busy..

i use to be a strong person.. and my greatest fear now is my bf hurting me.. i got hurt by somebody dulu.. and decided that that person did not deserve me and i found my boyfriend and we fell for each other and open up whatever closed doors we had..and i trusted him and he hurt me when i was healing.. but he made it up to me sudah.. and yet im living in an on and off fear.. im scared that he would change..

i dont need proof of him loving me.. he has done that.. i just want yknow that secure feeling bah.. i cant explain it with words but yeah.. if i could take out my heart and show you waht i meant prolly you'd know what i mean.. god emo jua tu ah :') i dont want him to change into something i dont want..

sakit you know to feel scared .. i love my boyfriend soo much.. i hope he knows.. god baby i need that magic from you.. you're a good man.. and i dont want you to change..

my ohh my...

2010-11-10T04:18:00.001-08:00

dont get excited yet.. just read the flash thingy until it finishes :P

twice

2010-11-10T02:12:00.000-08:00

i kinda miss this girl.. will be seeing her next january.. :'(

i miss our nenen times..

Ms Krazie-Back Into My Life Featuring D.Salas

2010-11-08T19:55:00.000-08:00

love this song.. sekali sekala mau jua samseng latino *wink* love the lyrics also.. and nope i dont dedicate it to anyone at all~

i HAD to do this for NAD'S sake HAHA!

2010-11-08T06:31:00.000-08:00

sooo nad tagged me right.. so uh ani sajalah me liat kan ahhh naaad ahh HAHAHAHA. this is how jurit my bed is.. well ani baik lagi ni.. on my uh awesome days.. i have like a lil hill of clothes and jeans.. my mum is like constantly pissed off everytime she's in my room.. and when i do clean up my room, its like.. 2 weeks warranty saja..

soo my fav things in my room is my boyfriend's cap (which i stole from him since last year) and his tie.. i got that this year.. he wor it on me pasal ia marah2 sekali ia pujuk lah. and on my bed (yang bejurit ah) is my baby's jacket.. i took that from him.. that jacket.. crazy memories!! haha. i always say id give that jacket back to him since last year but inda jua.. he end up buying a new jacket anyways..
these are my fav things in my room cause it makes me feel close to my sayang.. as you all know iam in a long distance relationship..

the flowers from him ada pulang its on my tv.. haha i dont have a flat screen tv.. we have that on the living room saja.. atu my dad's pride and joy tu haha..

okay nad i think we have the same type of side table.. mine is glass .. but the difference is..

BERJURIT!!

the side view of my bed HAHA..

SO yeah hope y'all like my uh post on how jurit my room is ;)

banana buns

2010-11-05T02:10:00.000-07:00

friday.. my friday went well.. i made an app to get myself a massage at 2 tadi.. nyaman tho sakit.. ive been wanting to do that like months sudah.. works been hectic and that massage is the second best gift for myself.. berabis..

god.. ive been moody lately kali.. esp with my bf.. i mean i get nyamal for no hard reason.. but i did explain him pulang.. hope he understands.. and im really sorry for my syg.. i hope he understands its not him.. its the hormones that make me moody..

anyways our last date was our 16th monthsary.. it was awesome haha had a lil incident.. jollibee is now a dirty place :P dont get me wrong.. it was cause well of my meal a frankfurter.. awkward bah.. haha malas me cereta.. as in here.. my bf is such a bully!!
well after that we went to a movie.. we watched 'the takers' it was 10/10 movie.. eye candy much!! plus the story was siuk jua.. an action movie that did not manage to make me ZZZZZZZZZzzz..
and my bf gave me a mixed cd.. tho it is like stuck here and there haha.. but its cute tho.. so anyways as i was saying , the movie is *thumbs up* and the siuk part is i get to cuddle with my bf.. it was thotful of him to offer me a blanky and jacket.. so that alai nya inda saajjuuuk hehe my sweet sayang..

after the movie we went crystal jade kali.. i think thats the name of the place.. and as usual on our way going to any place we head to.. my bf always put on music that always make me jaling and smile HAHA. and i just love the way he drives and at the same time holding my hand.. he the sexy one!!

so we arrived at crystal jade and yeah hang with the boys.. and they keep playing this peter thing wic i think peter is kong!! haha. so kong is now peter kong. yup peter kong.. i went to kb jua that day.. and as usual cried :') sigh i wish we werent this far yknow..

so that was last sunday.. the next day/night i had dinner with ferra.. we planned that like a few days before lah.. and yknow what hpn? on that night.. as i was getting ready and all.. haha assylla and zulf came to my house. that was a shocker cause i din expect to see them u know.. both of them.. so i told them that im suppose to have dinner with ferra.. who at that hasnt arrived yet. so i told them they should join us at moinam.. so they went there first.. and a few minutes after that ferra came. and we went to moinam.. and meet the other two and we had a great night.. kami makan macam samseng haha overload!! if you hpn to want to eat there.. try eating the madagascar chicken thingy.. delicious dude.. berabis. and its hot!!

so my week was great lah pokoknya.. tho hectic at work..

and ill post a picture of my room soon.. hahaha nad tagged me.. so yeaah soon ah.. u'll see how a gangstar sleeps.. bejurit much!!

Lil Kim feat. Mr. Cheeks - The Jump Off

2010-10-23T07:45:00.000-07:00

my fav. song lately..

updated

2010-10-23T07:33:00.000-07:00

omfg like heeey i havent update this baby for like laama sudah.. did you guys miss me??? *wink* lifes been busy and stuff.. i got like banyak panings and stuff.. but babes im like excited for december :D cutiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!! as in hols.. and whats your plan for new year??
my dad wanted to make like a bbq/party but yeaah.. mcm malas jua.. so prolly and hopfully.. we will just rent a hotel room in Bru.. and relax.. i aaam sooo tired.. soo yeaah i want that please :)

and im feeling the party vibes already.. i remember the times when we had parties and stuff.. i miss my dancing feet haha..

hmm.. i know its a quick update but yeah.. my work drained my blogging ways .. shooo saaaad.

and i changed my blog's look.. sanak me liat the old look uh..

eid mubarak love

2010-09-25T14:31:00.000-07:00

selamat hari raya people.. i know ive been well.. not updating you guys.. been busy.. holidays?? no rehat hehe.. and i got events at school till the 16th.. then come exams.. gosh im tired but im loving life..

i know sometimes i complain.. esp bout my syg... my bf loves me and he is a good man.. my past relationships(no offence) cant top this.. alhamdulillah :) im glad we found each other syang..

i love the way you say you love me everyday.. i love that you say sorry when your wrong.. i love the way you LISTEN to me.. even if i cry and sound fugly, you would stll listen.. i love the way you appreciate me.. i love the way you spoil me.. i love the way you are.. i cant mention everything cause well.. banyaak :)

a picture of us just now.. us at an uncle's openhz.. casual berabis kami haha. i wore a sexy dress! and my bf?? handsome boy as always.. mcm org at an xmas partypulang :P

soo have nice raya everyone.. be safe and well talk to you soon.. i ammm tiredddd and sleepy!!

hello mello

2010-08-27T09:48:00.000-07:00

have you ever felt damn ignored?? okaay okkaaay me emo now.. haha.. malas kan cakap pasal apaa pffftt... the same alasan jua kana bari.. so yeahh..

my sexy love.. kau annoying.. HAHA.

foxy night

2010-08-22T17:57:00.000-07:00

haha foxy.. due to me meeting and updating with the ladies.. Syll,Syd && Qay.. but before that id tell you guys how the daaay went.. sooo.. the boys came to kb.. boon my baby,kong,zulf,khai,yazid, judin and the smiley face guy.. i still dont remember his name cause i dont hear much from him. FYI thanks to syd.. judin is like satu intake with us in PJN.. i remember that face of his but.. yknow inda ku brani cakap apa2.. anyways.. we went sungkai at RMS.. okay pulang sana.. ada cowboy hats :D mun ampir ku pakai tu haha you know if i can reach it and have the balls to do soo.. i shouldve took pictures.. it was good day.. had fun and relaxin.. i mean tiring cause it was overwhelming.. but over all the stress througout the week... washed awaaay!! and uh i blogged that during ramadhan i din want to meet the bf and such.. cause i wana focus on puasa and such.. but yeaaaaah haha we met juaa.. plus i had my pewiood soo uhh.. thats a bida alasan right??

walau apa pun.. my rindu to my boyfriend.. punn ter-ubat.. :P i miss him..

when we were at riviera.. where i met my 3 foxy ladies.. who joined us.. which in a fun way.. syd and syll made my inner fun-loving-perv come out.. hahahaha.. since the other boys were i duno.. inda cakap with us.. prolly cause they din know what to say kali.. we uhh targeted my bf.. kesian alai baby ku.. haha.. but yeah harmless.. i love my sayang such a sport..

so the gals went home a bit early than us.. and afterthat i layaaaan my bf heheh.. so the boys.. excluding my bf.. bawaa burger.. non for us lah haha.. kami liaaaat saja.. so we ada light bulb.. and yeah we weeent to MARILYNS.. we escape from the boys and makan there sekajap.. we ate american (big ass) burger and lasagne.. ouh heeelll it was good as always.. the taste just overwhelmsss you.. my bf loves the two meals.. when he comes to kb.. whenever we have the chance.. we dine there.. and our menu.. american (big ass) burger and lasagne and light coke.. as always i clean up the veggies for my bf.. 'allergic' konon HAHA.. but i love it.. yknow veggiess.. after makan.. we went back to riviera

crap... lapar ku becakap pasal food ani..
okay monstertrucks.. GTG.. or TTYL.. hahahaha there an inner joke there.. :)

muhamad fadzli@boon.. i love youu sooo much.. kau memang hot semaaalam :PPPP

112-CRAZY OVER YOU

2010-08-21T09:08:00.000-07:00

magic trees

2010-08-21T08:47:00.000-07:00

late night conversations.. i appreciate that tho my bf sometimes gets cranky (for lil mistakes i said.. or cause me bangang with feedbacks..) without any warning and shouts and stuff.. and yeah me crying and stuff.. grumpy pants.. i love that pemarah bf of mine.. but i know he loves me even tho somtimes he can be a bit harsh with me :') and i love him too.. the other day..friday kali.. he told me bout cosmo and he said bout scholarship.. he went for the exam.. and he din explain me much.. haha soo i just kept everything inside and mcm kan nangis saja the whole day cause i thot he was going to be like a country away from me if he gets the scholarship.. i dont mind pulang.. cause i also plan to continue my studies and get a scholarship.. but yeah.. i just cant handle yet.. being that far from him.. and listening to 112 'crazy for you' made me cry like a bitch.. damn.. i love himm sooo much.. but theen he tooold me that the scholarship was base in Brunei.. awww... and he said 'dont worry' hehe he knew i was scared he was gna be sooooooooooooo far from me.. good luck syg.. i hope you dapat it and i'll always support you.. thru thick and thin.. yknow i would.. and jangan kuat marah2 samaaa me waaah.. :8)

what do we have heeeree

2010-08-13T20:47:00.000-07:00

happy Ramadhan :) gosh first dips of puasa went well... and i love ramadhan.. its a time i detox my self from all my sins.. i dont meet my boyfriend during this time.. cause i told him 'its a time to focus on puasa' hehe :) i hope he understands.. also to me puasa is the time for me to get together with my parents and sibs.. we dont eat much as in in together as a family.. not in a bad way pulang.. but i do eat lunch with my lil bro.. its a must.. just the adults saja hehe..busy here and theeere.. so eating together at the same table!! the saaaame time!!! mattterrrrs to me at this month... whatamisayiiiin!! anyhootsss.. ramadhan went well alhamdulillah heheh

my birthddaaay..

2010-08-10T05:58:00.000-07:00

my b-day went awessooome.. my bf plaaned everything for me.. i din even know what to expect.. i was like pwincesss that night lol.. even my baby said that... he was romantic and sweet.. brought me to polo for dinner.. i duno how much that cost him but im grateful.. then we went for a stroll at empire.. cuddling under the stars.. then went to coffee beean.. and he gave me a rinng!!! lawaaa!!! i love him.. and he loves me too.. gost alhamdulillah.. picts from that night~~

gosssh

2010-07-29T19:16:00.000-07:00

my left ankle is killin meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! i 'terseliuh' my feet when i was like going out of my bf's car.. and at first i din feel any pain cause i was mad at something.. yknow it was like a storming out off the car thingy and din mind my step and my bf din even notice me teseliuh cause inda obvious. pfft. but he knew when i told him later that night. painfull ehhh! hate it.. :"(

relax

2010-07-29T12:19:00.000-07:00

hmm i guess my previous post was a bit drama queen'ish.. but yeah.. somebody said to me i should delete incase anybody would leak it and yknow cause my head on the chop board.. what time is it now?? around 3.24 ish... had a fonecall with syg.. talking till we both mumble and finally said 'tdur by?' so yeah.. bfore me sleep me update lah ah.. for you all~ around 12+am ish tadi we went for a late supper.. funny thing happen but i dun wana sound racist.. it wasnt racist at all.. it was just darn funny.. i wanted to throw up jua tadi cause sayang suruh abis kan my drink tho me kanyang.. hish.. pasal i din wana abis kan nasi tadi like byk berabis masih.. tapi buttermilk chicken nya i eaaat.. haha. then ia suruh rasa burger cornbeef nya wic i only makan the burger.. roti i dun waant.. and my drink.. teh tarik.. banyak masih.. inda me terhabis kan.. me cakap 'ani boleh inda habis jua sayang??' and he said 'ee abis kan! ani *tunjuk the other two food* inda jua abis eh..' so i did.. i felt like drinking shots.. mcm i took sips and look at him and just drink and complain afterthat me sakit parut lah me mau muntah lah haha.

it was cold tadi uh.. i wore his jacket.. awal ny he wore it but he wore on me cause me kesajukan.. and so yeah sweet..

saturday is our anniversary.. Happy 14th months together.. ALHAMDULILAH..

p.s
it was sweet and assuring tadi on my way to go home sayang sang loudly 'jangan kau bimbang sayang dimana ku beraadaaa lalalala~ haha yknow that song.. hee.. the msg my boonsy tried to tell me *my bf is ego yknw* is well.. appriciated.. and urghh ia ketawa kan aku pasal aku lupa cana buat handsign west side.. and ia inda maoo bagitaoo pincode atm nyaaa.. ckpnya 'nanti waaaah' and i was just jokin kali ah but it was funny of my boonsy..

okay guys.. iam so sleepuy now.. rindu my sayang alot.

ding

2010-07-17T21:33:00.000-07:00

hey..hey..hey.. how y'all doin?? hee. had a great time with the boyfriend.. we had an arguement yknow the othr day so i came to bandar to idk.. make things okay back?? i know that for sure distance keeps us missing and wanting each other more and more each other, we dont get bored with each other and that everytime we meet up theres this awesome reaction.. but i cant deny that i/we do need to get that idk the physically there feeling.. like apa ni.. idk how to explain it pulang but yknow.. i bet you guys paham,,

so we just hang out at tk gdg with kong and zulffah.. talking.. and stuff.. a bit diam than usual kali.. idk.. but yeah.. still okay..

btw i realise like lama pulang sudah lah that my boyfriend's hair smells nice.. and i ask him.. what shampoo you where.. and he says 'shampoo azie' HAHA. my boyfriend has a sense of humour that really makes me LOL. berabis..

i took his galang tho from him.. i wore it and din give back.. thats how it is.. haha.. first it was his cap then his jacket wic i soo love.. and now its his galang.. what elseee??

my birthday is like in a few weeks.. i hint my boyfriend that 'there a need' of a new wallet and charles&keith handbag which he is like smiling saaaja.. but hey i just hope on my birthday i get to spend time with my family and boyfriend.. mudahan panjang umur.. cause im not finish yet with this world!!

i plan to upgrade my a levels next year.. then get into uni or any institute.. and insyaAllah.. i would surely want a scholarship.. huhu :( i know pulang if i do get it.. i have to leave my bf like more than a year.. heysh but yknow if he is meant for me than everything will be fine..

so thats all yeah babes.. hehe.. update you monsterTrucks sooon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-07-11T22:47:00.000-07:00

lil update from me.. had a great time with the boyfriend who came to kb :) and i had fun also with his friends.. i never played 'antu' and feel that excited before.. thats for sure HAHA. olaaaaaaaaaaaaa senioor~

he is mine and i am his.. and i am glad and proud to be his woman ..

nyum nyums

2010-07-02T20:08:00.000-07:00

watched twilight with the boyfriend lastnight..aweeesomeeee! my bebe lanja :8) god jacob is the nyum nyums. i mean his body is like... i cant explain.. but i think you can pour honey on his chest and lick your name on it. haha. perrrv alert. anyways i had a good time with my boyfriend.. movie then went tk bukit and hang with his boys. and yeah as usual it was fun..

alright last night.. kong said he found my blog and he isssss soooooo meaaaan.he bullies me bout writing bout my boyfriend saja hahah. but funny tho. anyways he reads my post. and leaves no trace. kong, if u read this... i know you stalk me :D hahahaha.

anyhoot the whooot whoooot.. my boyfriend went super sweet last night. i gotta say baby.. i love you soo much.. 'iam a vampire' haha. mwahs! and btw sayang... you are the reason for my existence.. did i get the spelling right?? edward said that.. okaaay damam twilight kami ni haha my baby and me..

hello mushrooms

2010-06-28T07:37:00.000-07:00

i uh hmm im crappy lately. i got this hmmm nevermind.. hee. i need a new hair cut :) cause my hair is soo long. i need to refresh my self. and im iNto Kamelot lately. haha if that ever explains my angry vibe. kamelot is like what? goth? dead people and whatever..i like the music tho i use to criticise amy everytime she listens to it 'what are you listening to??lagu antu?' haha but now yeah i like it.

okay i was wrong i just checked out this website.. kamelot is metal. this is confusing me. whatever.. haha i neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed my cheeeerful self agaaaain.

IAM F*ING HANDSOME

2010-06-09T08:02:00.000-07:00

and this is why my boyfriend loves me.. iam handsome.

listen

2010-05-30T06:44:00.000-07:00

despite the months we spent together it seems that it is only the beginning of us.. i dream of many more years to come.. just you and me baba bear :8)

bring me my bizzznizz wig

2010-05-30T05:07:00.000-07:00

oouuuhmagat its been like lama i din update much and yeah ima give you some update tonight *buka zip seluar* HAHAHAH. okay man when i say that..imagine tone ku mcm 50cent. anyways i watchd shrek lastnight.. it was pantasssticc i tell yah haha tapi aku *adding on 90c that i was the only person (maybe)* cried on the ending!! it was freaakin emotional cause shrek said 'no.. you saved me' to fiona and yeah i wipe my tears in pride and said to my sister 'lets makan pizza' soooo we ate pizza for late dinner.. again paaantastic ;8) and we bawa fuad with us too... so us tiga trio manis had fun...

okaay updates updates.. tmr, me and the bf gon be uno year :8) i got him the bigggggggggggggggggg -secret- wic is sooo cute ima wet my pants.. and i mean piss in my pants okay hahaha crap im a indirect perv sometimes. the way i talk and etc. sooo yeah i love that man hehe. despite our bumpy ride. i tell yah its a bumpy ride berabis..
hmmm.. i knew this guy like back in 06 kali but we din connect much.. he wasnt going for a relationship haha.. he was james bond.. and me.. i was james bond too. sooo we lost contact and contacted back in june 08 i think... from june to november or december i guess feelings develop *sorry if i mis-date the dates yeah i aint a super memory box* and waittt.. hahaha i remember aku annoyed awal nya arah this boon guy cause ia ckp something bout alevels ku.. then yeah we got to get to know each other.. i fell in love with this boon guy who dulu aku sengaja salah kan namanya something like fazli and he said its fadzli. i was trying to yknw act cool and not mcm psycho ingat nama orang haha. and he doesnt knw until now that aku eksen jadi bitch everytime aku salah sabut namany :)
soo yeaa.. i din know i would actually go deeply in love with this guy.. so advance a few months.. when we said we like each other.. we well always on and off .. and it was hurting.. us i think.. it confused him i guess.. it was for a certain reason i dont want to remember cause i promise myself that iam the new me when im official with this guy.. heheh. so yeaah on and off annnd banyak menangis.. if i remember that journey between me and him atu.. it nvr fails to make me :') hehe pasal yknow he was out there free.. talking to chicks and i couldnt do anything cause he was yknw not 'mine' hehe our situation was like that trey songz track 'cant help but wait' and joe's 'if i was your man'.. err i hope u get what im trying to say.. but on june i guess if it is meant to happen it will happen..and it did happen :) he became my man i became his woman... and i did a hell good job of bein his woman.. i loved him like i never loved anyone before.. i gave him the loyalty any man *whoseeh haha but seriously* wanted (<-loyalty; refer.. this was due to complaints frm my guy friends who get played and they said ''all i wanted was just..loyalty" so i assume men want loyalty in relationships). i gave him the support and understanding.. i was his gf and friend :) and despite every mistake he did.. esp the ones that involve girls.. bitch memories..i remember i kedapatan on november *tragedi oktober brrooo* that he was entah 'friendly' with girls.. and it went on and on for months..with more kedapatans and he says they are nothing.. that he loves me.. at first i was like 'whaat!' but i come to realise that a man is a man and sometimes thay cant avoid that game.. and me as his woman will not let any bitch take away my man... bitches come and go but true (and tight) love just wont go away.. So me jadi tis sabar person and cried saying 'why did you do this to mee?!! all i did was love you' heehee and finally he said ' i dont want to hurt you again and i will make it up to you' and he did.. cause now nada crisis nor dramas (Alhamdulilah).. so during that painful phase,a handful of people who knew this said i was stupid.. 'why you still with him if yknw he is like that??" cause i believe that love can change a man's man-whore ways.. it will take time and alamdulilah it is starting to show.. hopefully :) but heeeeey why is my story mcm sad ani kan??? haha astaagaaaaa!! hehe. point is its a bumpy ride and still is but despite all.. that love between me is constanly going strong.. okay hmmm... haha flashbacks pheewww.

soo happy anniversary to me and my baby.. still going strong despite everything :) terima kasih kerana mencintai ku dan mencoba untuk membuat ku bahagia.. coba untuk tidak menyakiti ku lagi.. kau memang awesome kerana tidak ego untuk mengungkapkan maaf. kerana bukan senang untuk seorang lelaki untuk ungkapkan maaf atas kesalahan nya dan membuat perubahan yang baik.. kau awesome sayang.. kerana kau sedar dan mahu berubah demi *kubit* cintaaaa~

now that one heck of malay'ness haha. but i meant it :)

haha alriiighhht.. kamu mau cerita cali yang membari gali ati?? haha kajap ah. 5minutes.

im back monster trucks.. okay wah anu apani ari anam kan aku ke bandar so di gadong.. bagas liat wayang..kami ani kan ke jp sekali masa arah simpang keluar centre point ada this corolla itam lah.. sekali i noticed driver nya ani senyum lebar wah sekali i was joking to my sister 'eh yo adaaa ni.senyum2 ahhh' so kali aku liat passenger seat nya ada laki2 ani.. ia mcm senyum manis HAHAHAHA bf ku waaaah. damn it. i indirectly hit on arah durang who happens to be c kong the driver nya. ngek jua tu. cemana boleh aku inda nampak clearly atu c kong and aku nampak senyuman saja. galap wah kereta atu.. c kong ani putih kali ah.. and caya aku tau wah laki2 siring nya in one glance bf ku pasal mata nya sepet dgn senyuman manis nya. tau2 ia pun salah hit kali HAHAHA. awwwww man ani kes hit arah bf-gf sendiri jua niii. haha. i was laughing the whole way. and kami meet up at tk later on and aku ckp arh kong 'sorry kong aku slah hit arah kau' haha. and soo before i went to belle's,my bf walked me to my car and gave me a gnyt kiss. wic aku cakap 'bibir mu merah *due to my lipstick lah*' sekali ia buat muka playboy and wipe off his lip with his collar and i keep saying/shoutin jokingly 'biar kaau..alai2 liat' haha *the joke was about if alais liat the stain ia inda laku..turun saham hahah. sigh. i din lepak with him lama2 lah cause i wanted to give him time with the boys.. since its Saturday and my bf byk tired lately with his new Govt job *congrats saayaaang* and he needs that yknw chill time... playin cards..smoke..drink.. whatever boy thing he does with his boys.. hehe.. seeee baaaby i do understand you.. sasak kdg2 wah ia ckp/complain as if i dont understand him.. pfft kubit!!

alright errr i neeeeeeeeeeeeeeddddddddddddd rest now.. update you soon monster trucks..

Work is my new bestfriend

2010-05-12T18:27:00.000-07:00

hectic hectic hectic!! its exam season and for my kids in KG tooooo... assessments!! so you thot these lil kids have none going on?? this is the part i say 'kau silap roy'... im making my portion to learn now.. a bit paning with since im new to this but im getting alright.. its raining outside and my kids are excited about it.. they make such noise that i think guruh... gunturrrr or whatever it is takut :S but hey! kids are kids.. i feel like i have 20 lil brothers and sisters.. naughty cute gremlins.. hmm my anniversary is coming soon. this is the big one. 12 Months :) and i think i got the perfect or maybe not so perfect gift for my boo.

i know you want this baby. HAHA. game bah ah game baaaah ps3.

i partaay like a

2010-05-08T08:33:00.000-07:00

a rockstar or pornstar or fonestar or paris on crack HAHA.

At balcony club last month.. had a great time so far this year..

yawah!

2010-05-07T11:49:00.000-07:00

i have been soo busy lately with events and test preps! and she is everywhere! i tell ya! she fucking annoys me.. and the bond between me and him is soo sweet,it scares the shit outtaf me! lols. i know i got some haters there. boohoo! i dont give a shit with you lot..

love is ours to keep and jaga :)

2010-05-01T19:11:00.000-07:00

sayang's kaka malam bebadak.. i wore tis there and i soooooooooo love the clours and the puffy thingy at my arm.. i call it my princess puff HAHA. had a great time.. saw my boo dancing and singing.. DAAAANGDUT. i got the vid but he would KILL me if i exposed it HAHA. and yeah i poco-poco hahahhhaa.. well i couldnt refffuuused cause sayang's mum offer me to dance... so yeah i was like INDA TAU CEMANA KAU TUJU KU.. and my boyfriend keep saying 'two step baby two step baby' while poco-poco'ing... like whaaat??? banyaaaak steeepssss!!! hahaha. overall enjoyed my night.. thank you sayang.

happy anniversary to my baby :) one more month sayang.. and SYUKUR TO ALLAH for everything <3>

uby kentang..

2010-04-16T05:49:00.000-07:00

you need to know i do get INSECURE at times..

iam not controlling you its just that you should know.. this is what happens when somebody(ME) who is constantly being treated *you know what i mean* in a way of entah.. baby.. just dont hurt me anymore.. i know we love each other.. and i love you more than ever.. and i still need 'healing time'.. which means i need you to be 'not a bad boy'.. scramble sudah ni..my words..hmm y'all know what im trying to say :')

2010-04-12T07:54:00.000-07:00

kamu suka

2010-04-10T10:25:00.000-07:00

polka dots?? haha aku suka tapi arah things saja.. pernah ku liat arah humans.. shit paning ku.. selajur ngumpat.. kalau tudung mesti cute laah... and lawa.. mun nadaaa... buat muka mr bean grumpy tia aku.. issshhh im so waiting for my baby to go online... tapi betabiaaat eh *sorry uby kentang- i meant it in a very nice way..- doesnt he know iam like missing him like crazzzyyy. hmph. si kong ni punya passsaaal haha. dating ia sama uby ku :) bf stealer *adjust fringe* HAHA. at some point i crack my boo up the other day cause i can imitate tone c kong ani.. and i told my baby that he and kong are like twins.. i mean the difference is just race.. but yeah they are the samee.. i like my baby punya friends cause they make me feel comfortable, i mean i had past rlationships and their friendsss are sooo cold. no wonder those relationship never work.. but my NOW relationship is awesome cause im in a happy environment. thats why when we go out and my bf's friends ikut.. i dont mind cause hanging with them is fun and not awkward.. plus i have like my very own oprah esp when i have bitch fights with boon and that therapy partner is nadiaaaa. my bf use to ckp that iam stealing his friend(c nad) frm him. like i steal homey nya. booo hooo deal withh it syg HAHA. so yeaah. lamaaa bf ku ani ehh.

smile

2010-04-10T09:29:00.000-07:00

not much to update.. its a month more for our 1 year together anniversary.. i havent have a slightest idea of what gift to get him.. all is good.. so far there are changes.. im nt being negative but im phobic that those changes dont last long..refering to his 'mistakes'.. but im a forgiver.. only god is the one ber hak punishing to the max..so i leave everything to god cause iam tired already of trying.. i love him yes i do.. more than i can say :') he needs to realise that he need to show more respect to our love :) as i said im a forgiver yet know iam not perfect. i dont forget things easily..

life is good in terms of work. i enjoy my time there.. made new friends.. yet i cant deny yeah, i am still searching the right job with the right kachinng. cause everything involves moneeey nowadayss. and i need moneeey for everything..

ouh iam sooooooooooo in love with Glee, i loveee the boys.. and even the gay one is cute...
i wna get the dvds but i always forget..

i somehow have a stalker who likes to talk bout me but does not want to 'communicate' with me.. SHE acts taiming around me but arah 'kawan' ku ia ckp mcm kami mesraaa saja.. ouh well.. hmm HAHA.

p.s i try uploading picts but the internet here a bit slow :) hmmph. nant taaa.

lifes a bitch

2010-03-30T07:38:00.000-07:00

yeah. positive on that. pfft. anyhoo alot of shit happen lately. my personal life was abit sheeznit. but idk ah.. i guees we cleared that already.. hmm. fuck im a bit stressing out now. fucked up life. she is out of control!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and i want to fucking crack her skull to make her realise that she is doing bad things. bitch eh.

gotta go. fucking bitch is messing with my mind now. and the fact that adding up ada orang membaca blog ku tapi inda pandai menulis arah cbox ku HAHA. ngek eh.

hey you :')

2010-03-13T08:25:00.000-08:00

uby kentang is the best in the whole wide world :D

2010-02-15T05:46:00.001-08:00

our first raya together.. hotness.. *licks*

2010-02-14T21:20:00.000-08:00

i love you Lady Gaga...

Monster

Don’t call me GaGa
I’ve never seen one like that before
Don’t look at me like that
You amaze me

He ate my heart
He a-a-ate my heart
(You little monster)

He ate my heart
He a-a-ate my heart out
(You amaze me)

Look at him
Look at me
That boy is bad
And honestly
He’s a wolf in disguise
But I can’t stop staring in those evil eyes

I asked my girlfriend if she’d seen you round before
She mumbled something while we got down on the floor baby
We might’ve fucked not really sure, don’t quite recall
But something tells me that I’ve seen him, yeah

That boy is a monster
M-M-M-Monster
That boy is a monster
M-M-M-Monster
That boy is a monster
Er-er-er-er

He ate my heart
(I love that girl)
He ate my heart
(Wanna talk to her, she’s hot as hell)

He licked his lips
Said to me
Girl you look good enough to eat
Put his arms around me
Said “Boy now get your paws right off me”

I asked my girlfriend if she’d seen you round before
She mumbled something while we got down on the floor baby
We might’ve fucked not really sure, don’t quite recall
But something tells me that I’ve seen him, yeah

That boy is a monster
M-M-M-Monster
That boy is a monster
M-M-M-Monster
That boy is a monster
Er-er-er-er

He ate my heart
(I love that girl)
He ate my heart
(Wanna talk to her, she’s hot as hell)

He ate my heart
He ate my heart
Instead he’s a monster in my bed

I wanna Just Dance
But he took me home instead
Uh oh! There was a monster in my bed
We french kissed on a subway train
He tore my clothes right off

He ate my heart then he ate my brain
Uh oh uh oh
(I love that girl)
(Wanna talk to her, she’s hot as hell)

That boy is a monster
M-m-m-monster
(Could I love him?)

That boy is a monster
M-m-m-monster
(Could I love him?)

That boy is a monster
M-m-m-monster
(Could I love him?)

That boy is a monster

village skanks

2010-02-14T07:19:00.000-08:00

its been awhile since my last blog update...

i have a new hair-do..iam now an orange-brown haired woman~ haha
today is valentines day.. and im feeling super romantic cause valentines day means it is our first hand-holding anniversary.. haha we have soooo many anniversaries that i think my babylove lose track sometimes.. i love you uby kentang :D
i have a new job as a teacher hohhhhhoooooooooooooooooooooo :D its great..alhamdulilah....
and on the 3rd feb.. it was my uby kentang's birthday.... we celebrated it.. hope you like your cake..your 'stuffs' and eheheheh :p

and yesterday we went to kong's place for cny's eve.. had fuuuuuuun... yang penting i had quality time with uby.. and thanks for my gift uby..i love the bag sayang..........lawaa.
and yes my paydaaay..kana advance and shit..did i splurgeeeeeeeeeee. i even bought myself a dress.. a killer dress.. clevage and all..for the holidays this march.. clubbbiiin~~~

hmm i best be going.. wanna watch bruno with the gang.. mwaaahs..

myspace

2010-01-22T00:26:00.000-08:00

okay im gna go myspace soon pasal aku jealous that one of my boyband made it kinda awesome waaaah hahaha. dj kissssh!!! anywayssss ouh hell yeah im in a happy kid right now cause idk just happy :)

pasal ani kali ;..)

2010 so far. and do eat my panties off me.

2010-01-15T23:45:00.001-08:00

hello pruckers..haha. ouh i feel soo the very random. lets make a quicky yeah, i got a job at a private sch as a kg teacher,its all good.gosh ive been tanaming anggur since 08 ykw, like i tried private exams and focus on making up for my prucked up results. bt lastyear i had enuf so yeah,money making ta.. ouh i got to say ths, im on baby fever.. i want a baby.. and i get emo whn i see one. idk if my boyfriend knows tis but if he does he would freak out and ckp on hold tah dulu.haha. so yeah bang bang bang. shoot shoot shoot. no bullets-blank bullets. hah! what am i saying?! sigh. if i had a baby nw id want it to be a girl.. and call it nadya jazmine hmm. nadya jazmine binti md fadzli. hahahaha. amin eh. mwahs my boyboy. aku ada babytua saja nw. bday nya kan dakat sudah.. i got no clue what to gve.. aw i love you huby. mwahs mwahs and shamaluks. i kw he wants an iphone. bt crap budget ku nd cukup. boleh ka aku bwa ia jalan2 di miri ka? selajur aku kan shopping?? haha i wish! speaking of shopping..payday is around the corner! mao supping eh! cnt wait. and uh im gna go make a new sexeh hairdo. awooo! crap i gtg guys. duty calls.

mutherprucker is such a prick

2010-01-02T04:44:00.000-08:00

my new beanie. and my psycho eyes. they always make my boyfriend ketawa. haha.

happy new year

2010-01-01T10:33:00.000-08:00

hows was your new year eves guys?? hehe. mine was great :) alhamdulilah.. well me and the fam went jp and the boyfriend join us.. then me and him went out frm jp cause nada jua kan dibuat..so the parents and us seperated..in a good way lah hehe.. so yeah..sayang and me went jalan2..then went to empire to see the fireworks.. lawa and adding up the romantic aura haha it was our anniversary.. :) too bad nada picts.. after that we went to tk bukit to meet up with kong..so we makan2 and talk..and my baby sent me home..

sooooooooooooo... the next day wic was on 1st of jan 2010 (awesome isnt it? i mean inda terasaa ykw) since we din get to jalan-jalan.. we went jalan-jalan huhuuuuuuuuuuu!! dinner at mcD's.. refill inda menjadi.. bought him ciggys..took picts at the photo booth..and he suprised me with charles&keith heels :D sexeeeeeeeeeeeeh. baybeeh... niceeeeeeeeeeee. i din knw bah plan nya antu.. he is always the joker and pengatil..so ia ckp bawa 'cuci mata' and tarus2 ia cakap ia balikan huhu.. he made my day..seriously..

the heels sayang bought me... not a cheapskate boyfriendddd i tell youuuuuuuuuuuuuu haha.

i love you sayang..happy anniversary..

goodbye 2009. and hello 2010.

2009-12-24T04:35:00.000-08:00

i couldnt think of what to update with this blog so i guess just a few picts from this year. btw merry xmas guys and happy advance new year kasih sayang ku semua...

cuddles.

2009-10-31T19:31:00.001-07:00

had a date with bubu last thursday. we went from tk bukit to the place,cz we din kw where to go since it was really late.just watchng tv and spending time together. aftr that i went breakfst at anggrek, so called balikpapan. i din sleep the whole nyt,i ws tired frm everything.then i went to jangsak.to rest at aunt noy. brutah me pengsan.at her sofa. i had some picts bt its stl in the cam,and i hvnt used my laptop ths fw days. i miss the boyfriend nw. im hapy that we are okay nw.

i mean it when i said i...you

2009-10-23T11:49:00.001-07:00

Thres smthng wrong wt the blog punya date.like lambat sehari. hmph.. imiss him now. i just wish im with him.it always feels safe everytime he puts hs arm around me or when he holds my hand. im outof creds. idk but ever since that,i fl that he really misses me with hs msgs and mcs. somehow ths abis crdt thngy is like ukw coincidence thngy like gvng us space after that damn incident hpn. im fling better in all sorts of ways. im hating less,tho it hurts everytime i rmber it. im less paranoid hehe sort off.and im accepting his love,i mean i do terima bfore ths,bt i was too in pain that i cudnt believe anythng he said,i felt played.i went paranoid whether he meant it evrytime he said he loves and misses me. bt my love for him nvr change tho. im so into him despite what he did. dspite mistakes done. mainpoint,my trust is getting okay nw. alhamdulilah.mudahan nda dugaan barat lg. im tired. i just want to be loved by my boyfriend,and alhamdulilah he does..

2009-10-23T11:23:00.001-07:00

you love me,and so do i.. i missed you,and so do you. we are fixing the damages together.. hmm i wana eat banana pancakes witchu babylove.

hmm

2009-10-20T23:19:00.000-07:00

i rather not think bout anythng involvng betrayal etc. im just gna try heal,and move on, if he change alhamdulilah.if not then thats god dcision on anythng. im more to lookng for the ryt job and get money and vacays now.

liar,killer,demon!

2009-10-19T01:51:00.001-07:00

i had a fight last week. cause he was double dipping me with other girls. theres ths bitch,D. shs bn calling and texting my bf. and whn my bf dnt reply ia asi2 txt lg saying ksian ia lah knpa inda kana reply. heh. buduh! and my bf.. what to say uh. melayan lah jua. hate it whn that hpns. so yeah,i cried and shyt. my bf said he regrets and wil nt hurt me nymre. ntah ah,i trust hym bt u kw boys.the wil do that again. im tired of fighting. i just want to get away frm everythng nw. i jst hope he learns hs mistake and hurt me no mre.cause if he does,then aku wil terabang eh. seriously im stl jauh ati. hee sabar saja and redha.god is fair.you cn lie to me bt god u cnt. i rely on god nw. btw i stl love you baby,bt u nid to change ur ways with other grls. and D,kau tah bini2 nda pmalu asi2 kn bf org. laki2 lain pun gali with ulah mu dsperate ah.

crazy over you

2009-10-06T07:24:00.000-07:00

whoooweeey. my bubu came to my place this mornin. i din expect it. so yeah with a simple text saying he's coming over and me balum mandi at that time totally made me huru hara. so yeah i din even know what to wear!! so i had like a fast shower,multi tasking the washing (eg; shampoo while brushing the teeth) and grab any clothing i could see. well my mind was set on the black top (add-on points for clevage) and grey cardi ( a lil cover up) and jeans. so i don that. my hai was a mess (due to lack of time for blow drying) and i had nothing on the face at all!! nothiiing. bareee. so yeah he came.ckap2,liat tv or was he just liat the space. and we went out kajap. to eat. like roti john. but baby had a hard time eating cz ada onions and sayur. and we had a 5 min debate on how rugi/inda rugi of inda eating/eating veggies. it was all good. so he sent me home. he salam mum.. dad balum balik frm work and i went it was just me waving at him sayonara and a flying kiss.. my ever so spontaneous boyfriend gave a 'symbolize' fuck you hand sign. and i was left to just LOL. cali juat tu like whadaheeeyl?? thanks baby bubu.. you made my day.. too bad no picts ..

and btw i read this book on dating ( HAHA. yeah i knowww. i was just fucking curious) and its about howd you know if your ready for sex. and id just realise im not. so yeah. haha random shit jua tu. hmmm. so yeah. no sexual activities that involves penetration will be held anytime soon. :D double thumbs up no?

picture on raya. belabih my boyfriend.. i know im heavy. so suck it in my deaar boy!!

pumpkin soup

2009-10-04T23:39:00.000-07:00

I had pumpkin soup for lunch.I guess its making me fl good. anyways,me and the bf is okay now. Alhamdulilah. No more arguing. I cnt stand being 'away' frm him.. i love him. my caring,lovable,cranky,sulking bf. with you,everythngs is always exciting and dramaa! hee. man im undr stress. with job hunting and everythng. as i said my edu dreams had to be kept on hold. tho i do am stl wanting to study and shit. and so yeah. money is everythng these days.i nd the doe to survive. phew. im writing a plea letter to the govt for a job. my standard malay sucks. and its making me stress out. alright.. i gotta take my rest. sniffles sniffles. i miss my bubu.

you.. you did it again.

2009-10-01T20:13:00.003-07:00

I remember ths ten2five song. Hee.im a bit fuckd up nw. emotionally handicaped,plus im trying these new pills, mybody responses is shitty.bt im being optimistic,cz my ass is how to say,kalau diampas nyaman yo cz of the pils.heh mau lg bibun ani bah. main point i wantd to say is Its weird smtimes guys hurt you that easily. Despite everytng you did for them. I wonder if they even hv slight memory of the sacrifices us gfs did for em everytime they hurt us. =.) i tend to say sorry even if its him who nds to apologies.ths is due to me bein really guilty at our rltnshp.i just wantd the arguement to end and just be the loving,hot for ech othr couple we are. iam stupid or i am madly in love with him. i let him shout at me. ido fight bck,bt i hold bck my anger and end up bein quiet and just fucking cry if he calls me stupid or yells at me,and evn call me a kegatalan.harsh? thats just my bf. he says thngs bfore thnking the consequences of it. and yet,i stl love him and stand behind him. with the patience i myself dnt knw i had all ths time. hee or is it everytime i want to leave.. i always remind myself the goodness in him. i always remind myself of the reasons why i wantd to be with him at the first place. what am i trying to say here? idk. im just sad,hurt and fuckd up. i really want loyalty frm him..dspite the nvr ending chicks paranoia.. stl i am loyal to him and nt put a hardcore revenge at ia. am i stupid?love drunk? hee. maybe ths is what love is.. love is stupidity at its most extreme point.. where you take pain and stl smile as if nothing is fucking you in the head. i just wantd appriciation frm you. love me like you nvr love any1 else. i kw you love me.bt you nd to hurt me less.. thats all.

kapok kapok kenapa kau btapok??

2009-10-01T06:57:00.000-07:00

as much as i want to upload more here i guess i'll just upload one picture :) the rest are in my facebook.. so hey base on this pict you know i had a good night of raya :D truth is lagging bah now. BANCI KU. urgggggggggh.

biila jua inda!

2009-09-30T11:42:00.001-07:00

Hows raya for you guys? Mine is uh. Meriah. Exciting. Ada sedikit drama *looks at bf* i uh drama cz me and the bf kana marah by dad.cz kami balik aher like 3am. haha. bt we are okay nw. myparents were just worried f their daughter ws grippin on the bed with md fadzli. haha. bt seriously, no panties were taken off tht nyt. anyways,picts of me and the bf im gna upload it here soon. even in fb i havent msukkan. im dying to see picts frm pats cam! bt i guess by the looks of thngs,saya harus menunggu sebulan dua bulan for pat to upload. hee. ds raya.. its the 1st raya for me and fadzli as a couple. glad. alhamdulilah. i manage to braya at hs place. argh jaauh ny rumah bf ku! aint kiddin. bular mata ku mencri simpang ny.bt we dpt tho. hehe. funy and cute story behind it tho. f im gna ckp here..tired ku jua. pokokny i get to salam bf punya dad and said a few words and exchange smiles.and bf punya mum too.. nervous bt it was all good. amah bf ku senyum kambing sama aku.hahahaha. hmm. good night semua. im slpy and tired. hugs and kisses. and happy eid mubarak. and and and and.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY NADIA! on the 29th.. hee bf ku punya close friend.. bh bh azie! baik tidur!

sweaty bums

2009-09-19T09:56:00.003-07:00

raya is on monday. im tired preparing thngs for the house.ths year im really involve. i made biscuits solo-ly. as in seorang diri. i clean etc. im mature enuf to undrstand that being a lazy bum is fuckng lame. so yeah. due to me busy ths and that,i had lil time for my boyfriend. whch he paham. we even had a fone call when i ws bscuit making subuh2. god after raya im off to job hunting. my dreams for edu wil have to wait,i nd my own money and shit. havent heard frm bsp,that scares me. anyways i mis my man nw,he s out with hs boys. my tumy hurts. my heart beat is kabak2.i hope he dnt gatal2. my hip hurt again. im excitd for raya,bt tirednes has made me a very cranky bitch. btw i have a new haircut. i kinda like it. imis my boyfriend. i nd him now! now! now! hehee im a dmanding gf ths days.blame my bf.he spoils my baie-ness. i get what i want..well most of the time. haha kdg2 he oso dnt gve what i want. nyeh bt he nice tho. anyways toodles. have a nice raya everyone.

ups and downs of you and me

2009-09-14T09:12:00.000-07:00

iam in a state of being a bit shhhh shhhh shhhitty. i dont like that msn behind my back. heh. any girl would fl lain rasa if their guy starts to do that. i cant tagur him cz its 'no big deal' to him. this is painful :.( sigh. i wish you would understand. i gtg now guys.. btw i someone tagged me on fb.. it was taken when we were in form 3. stl young and innocent :) i miss those years... and i miss the boys i hang with.. you guys rock. that goes to daus,ajy,juls,rahman and azmi.. ahmad msh malu2 here..but now kami kamching..kan mad maaaad?? haha. i miss you all guys kamu semua abang2 tagap now :)

one day more.

2009-09-12T09:50:00.001-07:00

Excited. Thats how i am nw. I kw its idk haha. im a bit emo on every single romantic thing..So yeah, azie is excited for her and her baby's valentine day anniversary.cant wait. i wana kw what he is goin to say. and im hoping he greets me 1st,cz we hv bn joking on that for days on who greets dlu.bt seriously i want ia. i just hope he doesnt forget cz when he is tired he forgets and, if he does forgets,urggh,idnt want any arguements.. so monday is hari yg indah. i expect crazy love expressions! im tired. Ill just stop here with ths lil update. Esuk2 ku sambung on ths post on d's quality time with aku td ptg.fun jua lah.

the fucking aftermath

2009-09-09T13:19:00.000-07:00

i dont rmember his name. but this kid right here is my anak buah.

baie bah ni.

this telaga..you know well.. my mom and her sibs use to take showers or mandi whatever here everytime they vacay at sabah. those were their teen years.. so there is this story the old people there told me.. that the water it neveeer tuhusss. whatever. i was crazzy over it since aku inda pernah meliat telaga like the real shit.

just got back frm that trip. was okay. splurged (on my not soo much banyak usin) on a few eyeliners ( since mine is like gone. hilang. no where to be found), bangles and a pink bag. my bear bear likes it :D so do i :P so the trip was tiring. any ways id just post a few picts. random much.

so after an hour going back here..since i stayed over night at my cousin's i thot why couldnt i meet up with my babyyyy.. i miss that KAB smuuuch. lupa tia ku sedikit aku tired. so yeah. asked (again) to come over. pick me up. and (again) a friend tagged along. this time it was kong.or should i say PARTIKONG.which i dont mind since it okay to have company.. fun company that is. hahaha. enough said on that.. it was all about the indon crocs.so yeah me and the boys and my baby. yeah. we were holding hands all the way. haha. kesian bah. kerinduan berpisah berapa HARI. haha. so yeah. went back at cousin's before 12.15 i think.. cause i was freaking tired. so had a good night hug from by and a good night smooch. haha i miss you baby. soo after ia send me like ia went home and he called me and we talked about stuff and ia sleepy. aku pun jua.. i miss you. haha.

much love everyone im off to sleep.

he said i love you more today. not i love you too. little things make big differences!! totally.

little kisses

2009-09-05T11:55:00.001-07:00

Din get to go sungkai with bear bear td.. but buut we went tk. yeaay. we din plan it plang. i was staying at my cousin for ths trip tmr..so i arranged a meeting with bear bear to come over,around 10pm.. since ia was sungkai with hs friends at fratinis.. and they chill and stuff. so he came and greet me with a hug. i love hugs frm my tall bear bear. i din realise zar was in the car haha cause bear bear pakai the big car. yeah,so i ask where ia after ths..he said tk,with the others..and asked me to join. so i did. and we went,the three of us in the car,diam2 haha until we saw ths huge crab on a sign like apakan tu sign for nama kadai.by tagur it cz it ws mking movement kali. and zar made a joke bout it. and it was cali. and when we arrive tk,ally was there, and joke around.and and he gave by sudaah gambar hasil nya menggambar me and bear bear with hs fone. damn i took 1 saja frm by. nyasal ku.shudve ambil semuaa. anyways. it was great to jumpa bear bear td. din sungkai bt we spent time jua td. holdin hands,teasing ech other,sharing food. and it was great to meet his friends,they are fun and funny boys. nant ku post picts i transfr from bearbear fone td. inid to sleep and charge myfone. imy mr boon.

Pink fucking crocs. i want!

2009-09-05T00:16:00.000-07:00

tmr is the day my ass is going to sit like batah. super duper iski? haha. maybe. im going to meet a few family members. and no aku bukan orang kk. tapi saudara mara brunei ku yg jauh tplanting ke kk. wtf were they running away from?? too bad. siuk sdh wah brunei ada like the mall and shit *HAHA*

so im kinda a bit shitty at watching my bag. cause you see.. i lost my avon panty bag. its a bag where i put my clean panties at. i dont have OCD and shit but i hate the idea of my panties mixed with my clothing. i like to keep it organized. and NO id dont have OCD or neat freak whatever the fuck you call it. but well sebanar nya im just keeping things 'safe' haha due to my 'selalu ketinggalan' attitude with my stuff. so if i keep everything order nada lah yg tinggal2. pfft. so yeah the panties bother me.

anyways i had a fonE call with teddy bear last night. it was good to talk. i mean really talk. you know what we went tru before this is idk..it wasnt that easy. but well look how we are now. like JayZ (AKU) and Beyonce (IA). haha. and im gratefull to God so ALHAMDULILAH. *do the alhamdulilah look* so yeaah. last night i haveee always wanted to talk to bear bear about whatever fucked up stuff i wanted to express dari dulu. all the questions and shit. and my thank yous and my apologies. all that you know. but the truth is i have always loved talking to that person. theres these connection between ia and me. you know. like i like that connection. anyways obviously i like to do anything with bear bear. (tau ku ni kalau ia tau aku ckp BEAR BEAR he is sooooooooooooo going to idk malu kali ia.. gangsta etc stuff HAHA) as i was saying i like and love being around this person. theres this peaceful feeling i dont get when im around others that i get from him. he ask me 'where do you wanna go?' id say 'id go wherever you go'. people can judge about me and him..talk crap..talk whatever you want.. or go fuck yourself with your words until you have an orgasm or whatever you wanaa fuck do.. go gossip about me till you get a hard on till you blow up on your maids face. so yeah i like to swear at this very moment. fuck fuckedy fuck. so it goes to those judgementals and those who just fucking hate me who constantly say shit about my life I dont care much now.. its just me and beyonce. we've been tru shit and sweet times before this.. so i bet we can go tru those fucked up judgementals.. so yeah let me walk and hold bear bear's hand while you fucking midget morons can lick my fucking cute ass. and lick it slow. cause you haters are fucking lame haha.

p/s aku cakap paloi tapi aku type paluh arah text msg tadi ah...

cuddles and little kisses baby.

so yeah this was another trip i manage to take a proof of my shitty travel knick knacs.had a good time tho. and no..nada barang tinggal.. thank god im a bit paran with everything.

6.40

2009-09-04T05:13:00.000-07:00

im packing my stuff for kk now. akuu inda tau apakn dibwa.since its ramadhan,i guess id just bwa tshrts and tops with cover-ups and shit. and sneakers. and shades. boohoo 3 days and no bear-bear around. pfft.adding up that i had to skip sungkai with bear-bear at fratinis. how shity is that. yuck i dont have enough rms to shop,bt its okay..jalan2 pun jadi lah. and and haha! nad is the first person to realise and tagur that i salah buat sungkai time on my previous post. haha.aku tinggal dakat miri bh babe.iatah tu. alasaan.haha. well ill put picts soon. gotta get going with the packing. and passport ku is in the fucking car! tired. i need my fudge-lee.

A horny bunny.

2009-09-02T12:16:00.000-07:00

Aku kana suruh tidur pasal aku buuat ia -di filter takut orang bawah umur baca- haha. nadabh. malas ku kan buat panjang2. iry. baanaaar. o:p hmmmph. cant waait! wth haha. i need to tidur. seriously i do.

seriously at first glance i thot like scribbles and shit. and if you guys liat banar2 its uh haha taloo orgy... its available on a fucking vintage shirt. hahaha.

mash potatoes means supadupanyummy!

2009-09-02T02:37:00.000-07:00

its 6.40 nw.inda lg lama sungkai. today the whole family is like in a happy-lets-makan byk2-today vibe. kaka masak crabs,and idk what sayur they call it. mum is doing ambuyat later. and me did mash potatoes with butter and mayo.and durang nini antar ayam masak kicap tadi. cant wait to eat! haha. this year puasa for me started with a thumbs up. i din have the urge to pacah it. unlike last year or the past years,i din care much kan puasa ani. samseng days are over! yeay. i guess being ehem 21 change much on many prspectives on life. alhamdulilah. haha whoot. well i just hope inda pcah ths year,or even if i do,well im a female so theres always period week,i hope like kan habis bulan puasa..cause syg and shit. hmm im tired and hungry. krg lg ku bloging yeah? kisses.

you cant just make it go away

2009-08-31T09:41:00.000-07:00

if you guys have my facebook you'd see the whole webcam madness. haha. you leave two girls who are bored and feeling a bit ouhlala. haha your result -_-' hahahah

love you belle. kau nigga ku selama nya.

'thats what you get for being an ASS OF A GUY' say this to a guy who wasted your time and went stupid on you. and you my dear girl can go have fun and let love find your way. HAHA. deep sih~ 32 ..your hand fits mine.. kau orang kapok. aku suka orang kapok.

Me too.

2009-08-30T12:39:00.001-07:00

its sahur.and im alone. yang lain inda sahur. damn i wonder how they get tru the day wthout sahur. if it was me, like id get cwanky and bitch about everythng.so yeah.maggi kari isnt cooked yet. so i blog tru my fone. so td.. i made a few fnishng touches for my interview with BSP. argh im nervous. i got my file smartly done,i prepared any needed speach and pilih the right pink tdong with my pink outfit tmr. so after that.. so i went msning with 32. well fyi,we din talk much today,arguin. masing2 nyamal. haha pangit,wic means bida. cz nyamal2 with ech other. bt in the end it was okay. he said sorry and i said id cntrol my anger issues. i asked.. if org askd you who am i to you.. ia ckp im hs baby.bunga2 la ckp ny haha. wic ws hot. bt i said gf ka? you could ckp that dripda bunga2. haha. so he was playin cool and shit. so me bein a bit jauh ati also play it cool and shit.bt in the end he went smting like your my gf..wic was sweet. adding up he wrote the hug thingy. cute thingy. haha. and that he hearts me and stuff. yeah senyum2 ku now. hahaha. so i guess we are not arguin anymre. tho i kw there are those girls and shit,bt hey in the end im the one who stand out and im the one he says ily to. so okay haha obviously im just bein positive. and nt crazy.bt if i found out any chick messing with me,awas kau. haha or 32,if he urgh jahat sama aku idk i go cry like a bitch haha and ckp hoow could you and punching,lightly, on hs shoulder. haha bh eh sahur ku dulu. sayang kamu semua.

finally

2009-08-30T00:33:00.000-07:00

everythings a bit okay i guess with this blog and shit. i mean sedikit bisai lah. but i guess my old blog is waaay more lawa than this shit. haha. okayy i talk a bit cranky now cause of urgh entah eh that stoooopid drama. whatever. some one said to me 'im sick bla bla bla of bla bla bla you bla bla bla being bla bla' sigh teddy bear..how am i suppose to react anywaysssss?

so last night we went TK And chill. so yeah..

too tired to say anything let the picts do the talkin.. and also went to serusop to sahur :) whats the name of that rstrant. inda ingat.

hee and yeah now im like barutah ada time and effort for a simple cbox so that you guys can say anythinnng haha and well linking my self with you guyss. and also with new friends :D

an hour sumthin kan sungkai haha yeaaay.

ohh yeah and happy advance birthday to ally kawan fadzli :) 31st right?? haha.

hello and hello

2009-08-20T08:23:00.000-07:00

A new life a new chapter?? Something like that..wth.. so its my new blog. A personal yet not soo personal journal of mine. August has been a lil fucked up for me..CHALLENGING YEAR!! I got rejected by UBD in last minute. Which im hatin their sytem FOREVER. Remember fudgeheads..if you want to make that kind of decision in sudden death mode don’t fudging send me an email full of hopes and dreams. You guys just BS’ed my life but its alrite im stl breathin... yet on august there are certain things makes me smile. Thank you 32.. you make my heartbeat go techno..with you singing happy birthday to me on that couch at qlap.. cant describe much..

but hey this is us at ILotus… and in ur car somewhere around ..dimana kn that place I don’t remember…its not thati don’t ingat but cz im so bad at roads in

Brunei

muara id just say ‘inda ku ingat’ to pindik kan cerita haha. Vaaaah boo you make me go nuts.

Hmm life has been okay I guess. Despite the shit ive been tru. My life,my struggle with edu and YOU KNOW WHO.WELL IDK AND I DON’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT HIM!!! Well all of that made me stronger.. wiser maybe.. but what im sure is it made me realise that sometimes life is all about give and take..and being patience is totally worth it.

I hope the months and years ahead me is soo gna be alrite.

Hugs and kisses.

3two7eight.